FiRst WeEk PraCticAL....

Finally, first week of practical is over. This is the 3rd and final phase of our practical. This practical is really challenging. I keep telling myself, it's ok to have barriers cause this is the time we gain experience and to learn. This time i got an urban school, and my lecturer don't really agree with my choice. They kept saying the negative things about the school and it really pissed me off. Are they suppose to do so???!! I mean, it's ok if we face problem cause this is the time we learn to adapt in different kind of environment. What if i face a worse school in future?? Am i suppose to sit down and cry for the rest of my life??!!
Their words bothered me so much on my first day to school. I wondered, will it as bad as what they said. My school is a very small school with only 265 students and 20 teachers. My preschool class has only 15 kids instead of 25 kids. I thought that it will do me good with just 15 kids but i was so wrong. 9 of the kids are just 5 years old, which means it will so tough to teach them. Having 15 kids is like having 50 kids. They are so active and threating the school as a nursery place, eat, play and then go home. Well, this happen due to their environment. Most of them are from a poor family, they come to school without having any meal. Not to mention that few of them have health problem. It's really pity looking at their condition. One of them is under weight with one eye that totally can't see anything and wearing a specs with 800 power.
I had a hard time teaching them the first two days. It's hard to control them and i almost wanted to cry. I kept telling myself that i must prove to my lecturer that they are very wrong of what they had said. I trained the kids and made some activities on the third day and i felt relief. They were not as bad as it seems. They just need a little bit of discipline and love. The preschool teacher was very nice and friendly too. So, never judge a book by its cover. Next week will be the starting of observation. Hope everything goes well...

Finally..

After tomorrow, life has to be back to usual. Waking up at 6.30 am, going for assembly, classes, practical, assignments, exams and courses. Three weeks of holiday is coming to the end and our final sem has arrive, the sem that we waited for so many years. There'll will be so many tasks to be done and all the challenges that we have to face later. Only one sem to go and next year all of us will be separated. Only left one sem for all of us to be together, as classmates and to be in the place where we are always protected. Next year, we'll have to face the real world with the greater challenges. I wonder if i will be able to do all these by myself. I'll sure miss the time when we were studying, having fun around with no worries.

Guess Guess Guess

Try to guess what am I:

I am a very important material to everyone...
I can caused happiness and joy...
I can even caused disaster and sorrow..
I can make people smile and laugh..
I can even make people cry and suffer..
I can make people' s dream comes true..
I can even make people fight with each other..

People work hard to get me..
People will even quarrel with their besties to get me..
People will even kill each other to get me..
People can never see anything else besides me..

I AM EVERYTHING!!
So, try to guess what am I??

Hoping For Better..

Why there seemed to be no bond between us??
I thought we were supposed to be very close to each other??
I knew u went through so much for me..
I knew u suffered lot for me..
I knew u never stop sacrificing for me..
I knew everything u did is just for me..

But WHY??
Why u never thrusted whatever i said??
U just listen to other people!!
Why u accused me whenever something turn up??
U just don't believe me!!

I still remember those words u said before..
I still remember those things u did to me before..
I still remember ur face expressions that time..

I admit that sometimes my words hurt u..
And i'm sorry for that..
My heart was in pain too whenever I saw people scolded u..
How I hope I can give them a piece of my mind too..

I tried to forget the bitter part..
I tried to remember the sweet part..
I tried to be close with u..
I tried to have good talk with u..

Things never work out between us..
Or may be I'm a very sensitive girl..
I just envy people out there..
Because I wanted to be like them too..

It's holiday....

Hoorraaayyy!! It's holiday!!! Finally, after gone through a busy, hectic sem with quite-hard exam, it's time to enjoy and relax. Last week exam was like hell, i could only sleep for 2 hours every night, fearing what i had read will be flown away. I guess that whole week i was very nervous and tensed up. The exam papers were really torturing, two hours and forty minutes to finish up four essay questions and ten subjective questions. I kept writing till i couldn't do it anymore as my fingers began to shake which also made my writing looks like primary kid's writing. But who cares, as long as it's all over now and i'm having three weeks holiday....i can wake up anytime i wanted to, eat whatever i craved for, go anywhere as i wished....life is just wonderful....Happy holiday to all my friends, enjoy yourself before our final sem arrive =)

Melting mind...

HOT! HOT! HOT!

This is all i can say, over and over again every moment. This weather is driving me crazy!! I couldn't even do anything else except hibernating whenever i'm free. I couldn't even think properly everyday. This weather is melting my mind slowly, how am i going to concentrate in my study with this temperature?? My exam is just two weeks away and yet i couldn't pay any attention in my modules...Oh God, please give us some rain..We will be very good!!

GloOmy HeArt....

Once again, i felt lost. I couldn't find any reason to be cheerful. I wanted so many things in my life which i'm not sure if i'll be able to get it all. Will this continue forever? Will i be able to create some miracle? How i wish i've got a fairy godmother or maybe a doraemon to give me some magic in my life.....